October 3rd 2010
That seems light years away. 7 months prior I had Morgan. Running a marathon. Living one of my dreams out. Facing my fears. I just remember running and dead tired and in from of me a probably 75 year old man running in front of me with a Tshirt on that said ” I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13 and thinking it was a sign and how can I let this 75 year old man beat me ?? And kept going. And kept going. I will never forgot that moment. Because I trained like a wild women pushing my baby at least 10 miles a day training and running my heart out. Playing it all out in my mind. And when I seem so far away from that person I need to go back to that moment to revive me. Get me focused. One of my goals this year was to do a triatholon. Well I really dont think that is going to happen. Who knows? But I feel the frumps inside and out. Gained a couple lbs. and havent ran in ages. I loved to run I actually loved how I felt free and stress free. And when I would run and read other runners they would expierience that too !! A freeing !! That only running can give you. I am 35 years old stay at home mom of three and a wife. There is nothing wrong with that. But sometimes I want to be more. Dont know why? Because that is what I am. But when I ran it was me against me. To see do I still have it inside of me. And I did. And I know deep inside she is in there. Just need to get my motivation back.
I write this blog It seems lately ” Like the Diary of a Wimpy Mother”.
Not Proud. Just reality for me.
But I am back to doing to do the dishes and clean something and run a kid somewhere.
Until Next Time. Never Let your Dreams Be So Far Away.