happy birthday my love.

My Morgan

3 years ago today my life was forever changed.

You my love are my everything.

You keep me on my toes. Sassy. Sweet.and Passionate.Would be the words to describe you. I can relate. Your daddy calls you “Nicky J” as Nicole Junior he is referring. And I would say you are alot like me. Hard to admit at times. Because you are at times are very difficult to handle. I just try my best to embrace it.

I try my best to be the best Mom to you. All the time.

You make me laugh. Your words are raw and real. And who knows what you are going to say out of your mouth. Last night it was ” I dontl like my little girl bed I like my baby bed.” And “I do it myself.”

You love your daddy like no other. You are madly in love with him. You love knowing he is around all the time. And when he takes his trips you cry all the time when he is gone. And especially when you are in trouble. You want him. He is you hero. And I dont want that to ever change.

You love love Minnie Mouse and Doc McStuffins. And especially love Good Luck Charlie and Jessie. I dont know if I shold be letting you watch those shows ??

You are now able to be bribed with the Candy Store when I take your pictures. You have a real obsession with gum.

And that brings me to your all time OBSESSION “LIPGLOSS” !!!!

There are no words to start to describe how you feel about lipgloss. Before you get your picture taken you make sure you have some on. Well freshened up. And after this birthday party you should be stocked up for a couple days !! Most children couple months.

You love your purses and change them out every day to a new one.

And tutus are your favorite thing to wear. Or anything with tulle.

And often your dad asks me “Are you sure she is yours” ? Meaning you are a total girly girl. And me plain jane !!

It is funny.

And your two obession is JUICE !! or you would say JUICEBOX please. I must limit and manage that one.

You are my sunshine. You are one busy little girl and can make a mess is .5 seconds. You are now learing to clean up not to happy about it but oooh well.

You love to go to the park and play on the slides.

And Wyatt is your bff !! You two have a special bond. I love watching it.

You keep it real. You keep life happy and magical. And i love that.

Happy Birthday Big Mo !!!

Xoxoxo. Your Mom.

taking time.

Up until a couple years ago I never needed alone time.

Probably I didnt need it until Morgan came to be.

24/7 I am surrounded my at least two people. My lovely works from home and it has been a real adjustement. He spent 12 years in a Coke Van and working crazy hours to support us. And two years ago he took a home job. That has been crazy. It has gotten better. But for me I sometimes need an outlet. Not to get away from my kids or lovely. But to just breath.

I would never change my stay at home house life but sometimes it gets to be to much. I am a doer. From the time I get up which it about 530-6 ish until I sit down which it about 8 at night. I am busy doing whatever comes to my head. Cleaning Laundry Scrapbooking Pictures and So much more.

And as I have gotten older or maybe the schedule keeps getting busier this old brain needs a shut down button. So I will come sit down in my chair in my backyard and usually surf the web on my phone watch some creative videos or do whatever. But I am sitting and not thinking about the next thing to do in my house. And it doesnt have to be very long. Just long enough to revibe myself. And maybe its just the sun I need who knows.

I use to feel some sort of guilt like why cant I be like my mom and keep going and going.

But we all need some alone time. And I think it is good for the soul.

Xoxox.

Project Life Week of Feb 25

I really enjoy doing Project Life every week. It is my time to create. And let the pictures speak for themselves. Every week I like to change it up and this week I try embossing for the first time. It is super fun and easy !! And an easy wat to add to your pages. I used Dear Lizzys newest line. Went to town using a 6×6 paper pad. And it sticks with the same color pallette and the flow is nice !! This last Thursday I joined on Ali Edwards “A day in the life” in which you document your day. It was fun ! That was a super busy day for us !!! I like to use collages for my Project Life alot and Free is what I love I got alot of these free collages from TheLillyPad. I think thats about it !! Enjoy !!

a lesson in patience.

For years my husband has wanted to coach baseball every year he talked about it but do to his schedule he would never commit. Well this year has totally changed that, and so he is the Manager/Coach of the “Angels” Yeah !! They have only had two practices so far I missed one due to other meetings. But was there for the first one. I think that along with teaching these young boys about baseball. I think they are going to teach my husband a lesson in patience. And communication. Wyatt is such a good kid. Most young boys are wild and crazy but my son is the best listener, patient. I never take that for granted and know really how most young boys are. When we got home he asked me “If you were going to critique me on how I did how could I improve”. Me being the honest person I am. And knowing him. I said to him. Well the first thing I have learned through 4-H is not everyone is going to like you but they should respect you. That more about the parents. Because it is a fine line with kids. You are going to get people that dont like you. But if you know in your heart you are doing the right thing then it should matter. My husband wants everyone to like him. As I do to. But I want peoples respect more than anything. Because really I want to be liked for who I am. It is hard to explain. He said you are right I do want eveyone to like me but I want to kids to understand we mean business. And I know in my heart those words will resignate through him. In my heart I always look at children as being molded weither or not they are yours if you come into contact with them. Treat them with kindness and postivess you never know how much impact you could have on their life. And that is so important. I am proud of him.

lets get reAL around this place.

i am addicted to food. i admit it. it is an everyday struggle that in my morning i wake up and say today i will behave myself. i do so good during the day and then always at night i blow it and wake up irritated with myself over it. i think i find confort in it. dont know why. emotional stress maybe. who knows. or maybe i just really love food. i would say that is it. non the less. i am better than that. and envy the women who can eat whatever they want and be skinny. lucky genetics. but for me that is not what my body is anymore. and that is really hard for me to deal with. and my husband is the best cook ever. that makes it even harder. im thinking maybe putting it out into the world would make me more accountable. yeah. it is hard for me. really hard. nobody but me and good lord knows how hard it is for me. i make a joke to my husband and laugh about it. calling my fat roll my dewlap. but inside i hate it. and cant find enough strength to do something about it. it feels like i work out and then i start feeling run down and then quit. or i quit it all at the same time and then my body goes into withdraws. whatever maybe there is not enough excuses in this world. but in my mind i always say it is so bad for my body. which it is. and lets face it. i am not gettting any younger in a couple weeks 36. good lord. cant believe it. closing in on fourty and that is old. i just need a whole new revamp on my life. all the way around. lesses brown spots. cover up the grey closing in on my head. less fat. and a better attitude towards life. i do have a rotten attitude sometimes. i hate it. bad for my children and myself. i try to rise above it all but it is always hard for me. i work on it everyday. i actually work on alot of things everyday. i try to find peace in between it all. not enough time to do it all. but there is one thing for sure. i will never ever give up the fight. it is not my nature. i will fight probably until i am not on this earth anymore. i will conquer the fat beast and other beasts. and that is hope. that is one thing about me is i am a hoper. i believe to my core being. i believe in the magic of life. i believe every single thing that happens is for a reason. i believe in my lord and savior jesus christ. and even though i mess us i am forgiven. i will never ever stray from that. i am thankful. even in this blizzard of life i am thankful.

the season has started.

The season has started and we are back at the baseball field. Practice Practice Practice.I love watching my kids.

Mo and Me Day

Last Friday I woke up and said to myself I need just a day with Morgan. Just me and her doing her favorite things. So thats what we did and it started at the park of course her favorite place to be. “WEEEEEEEEEEE” as she would say.

We stayed there for a while played swang did some balance beeming on the sidewalk cement. Talked and laughed and only took one picture of that because she hated my phone with a passion.

Then we headed to the Donut Store. I never let her go inside I just send in Wyatt and Natalie to get her donut holes. So to go inside was a treat for her.  She got a Pink sprinkle donut with apple juice that was in a special plastic container that kind of looks like an apple. She thought that was the best thing ever. It doesnt take much to make  a almost 3 year happy !!

Then headed to feed the ducks.

I had old bread that I had been storing and it sure goes fast. It feels like these little buggers can spot you a mile away. And they all came swimming- flying to  you. It is kind of scary at first just because there was so many of them. Morgan was running to the little bridge back and forth. Grabbing bread and throwing it over the bridge and kept doing that for a while. Laughing and I was laughing at her. Taking in this moment I think. Just the sound of her laughter just releases stress in my body. It was just a nice sunny day out. We walked around the lake and watched all the different birds. This little pigeon came so close to us probably like 2 feet away. It reminded me of something from a Disney movie. He was just starring at us. Then we headed do some shopping.

And the day ended with her being a little crabby which means tired. I put it in her seat and she was out fast.

It was a nice relaxing day.

I think I sometimes forget to get away from my house. How nice it is. I need to remind myself of it more often.

One thing that is often in my thoughts is making sure that all 3 of our children feel loved individually. It is a balance that like I say alot is hard for me. But I try my best. In the last couple months more of just one on one time. Shopping eating talking. Fun Stuff !!

Until Next Time.

Xoxoxo.