Well I am trying to keep up. I have the last two days to get done. This is my first time doing this and I love it. It is creative and there is an ending. I love that. I love Christmas especially with Morgan she is so happy and excited everyday she wakes up and asks is it Chritmas Eve Yet ? I laugh and say No ! I think that is my favorite part are the stories I tell the everyday things that I will probably forget. I love those moments. I think that is for it now ! I just posted all these on Pinterest. I love pInterest the ideas are endless and keeps my creative juices flowing until next time. ! xooxo
I am thinking about Christmas. What Santa is going to bring to my kids.
I am cleaning. My kids have been sick and I usually clean but when they are sick I go into the real cleaning mode.
I have made promises to myself that I will keep. One of them included working out at least 30 minutes a day for 5 days a week.
God is present in my life more than ever. I need him more than ever.
The truth doesn’t always mean you have to say it outloud.
I carry around a lot of hurt from people. I work on it daily to go on but sometimes it is hard. But I know God has my back. He heals a lot.
I am always reminded life is every changing. What was yesterday is not was is today.
Joyce Meyers. Oh my Goodness. She is AMAZING ! Truth stirrer.
I will be brave. Because I have known no other.
Thinking constantly about school and homework and grades.
I am thankful for laughter.
This is my nephew.
He is my brothers kid. I have had a very rocky relationship with my brother for most of my life. I am like my dad and he doesn’t like my dad (which is his dad also.)
But this little boy no matter how you cut the butter is my nephew. And I love him.
My brother is divorced ( he was barely married.)
And since this little boy has been born he has been a sickly boy.
There is so much history to our family it would really be a painful confusing story to tell it. And I try to not think about it because it never will change anything.
The only normalcy he really has is my mother. And we only see him when he is with my mother. She watches him on Fridays.
But when we get to see him it is nice. He doesn’t speak very much.
He was diagnosed with Autism at 2 years old. He is a quiet boy that probably has seen more bad stuff than I ever have.
When him and Morgan are together it all just withers away and he just smiles and laughs as he is irritating her it is really like watching me and my brothers reinacted life when we were young.
He has since started a special school. Where he will get special attention and hopefully start to talk .
My mom actually told me that the other day he counted to three. Which I know compared to a lot of 3 year old its nothing but for him it is a big mountain.
The road is long, but with much love and prayer I know he will make it.
He loves my camera and always wants to see it. Which makes my heart happy.
He has really changed my life the way I think about things the way I look at life. And how humble love really is.
And I am thankful for that.
If I could take this away from him I would.
But all I do is love him. And Morgan loves him.
And when he is here for a couple hours it is just a touch of normalcy. He loves to be outside and loves the water like no other.
He plays and watches the dogs and loves light sabers and Wyatts legos.
He is a special little boy.
I prey for him often and he is a lot In my thoughts for God to watch over him. Which I know he does.
Sorry for a not so nice picture. Just snapped it really fast with my iphone.
Back to this post.
I grew up in not so religious home. I was baptized Catholic and maybe went to church less that ten times before I was 18.
But when I turned 18 I was working at Sears and this older women had invited me to church and I started going. I think around that age I started questioning my life. What am I going to do ? What is my purpose ? All those I am think to much into things kind of questions.
So I really liked it and felt this strong relationship with the Lord.
And I have been off and on going to church, I know he has never left my side. I think just life gets busy. And it is hard, I am the only person really wanting this.
I don’t always think you must attend a church to have a relationship with the Lord but it does help to keep your mind and heart on the right track.
I think the last years of my life has been so hard. But I know he has never left me. I spent many times preying and crying out to him to release me from certain things.
I think that the biggest thing is our kids. I look at them. And see what this world is like.
That is scary for me.
So the last months it is just been in my heart like Nicole Prather you need to do this not just for you but your kids.
I often feel God is talking to me. Telling me.
We can chose to listen or we can chose to disobey what he tells us. No matter the price.
Its only for the good of myself and my family.
So two weeks ago we went all together including my husband. It was nice.
It helps keep me focused on the bigger picture of life. Its keeps my mind calm. And being around people that are the same as you. Knowing that just because you love God doesn’t mean the road is easy. But knowing he is by our side makes it easier.
I watch my kids and it makes me at peace. Like Yes we are doing the right thing. In the end for me I want to make sure I did everything in my power to try and secure them with an everlasting life. For them to know God is always with them. This life there are no limits if you believe.
There are a lot of things about me that I don’t like. I cant change it all in the same day but reading the word has really helped me. I want to be a better wife. A better person period.
I believe that you are always growing and changing what I was yesterday doesn’t mean I have to be that person today.
Well I am off to work on Project Life (well attempt to ! )
Hope you have a magical day.
She is 14.
She loves to read. Everyday. All the time.
Favorite Color Red
Favorite Food I would say pizza
Her favorite subject History or Science
Her favorite accessory A hat
She has a deep love for movies.
She is determined.
She is a dreamer.
She is a creator.
She is my beauty.
She reminds me so much of her daddy.
She has an unbelievable recall. Knowledge she is like a sponge.
School is so important to her. Straight As.
She is my oldest. I was 22 when I had her.
She is a simple girl.
She hates when I call her a lady. Reminds her of old I think.
I call her Nelly or Nell. ( when she was a little girl on the playground like 4 she met this girl and they were playing and the girl thought her name was Nell so I thought it was so cute). It has stuck with me and she only lets me call her that.
She likes to be called a nerd.
Her daddy thinks she can do no wrong.
She makes me proud.
I love her.
Morgan has changed her costumes I don’t know how many times. But two weeks ago she said I want to be Dorothy.
I went with it.
She loves that movie. I think it is her love for musicals.
But I sure do think she makes the most beautiful Dorothy.
She likes to put her costume on and watch Wizard of Oz and sing and play the whole movie out. Which I think is adorable.
There is one thing about her is that she keeps me on my toes and makes me laugh !
I sure do love her.
We have made the journey.
I finished up on Saturday and was so happy and relieved. I never leave a project in complete. In the video I talk about the process and some thoughts.
My video can be seen here ! ( when I uploaded it it was sideways I edited it but it says it takes a while to fix so if it is still sideways I am sorry !)
Two weeks ago Natalie came home and showed me this paper. At first I was in shock and then it turned to that is awesome.
It is so unlike Nat to run or do something like this. She is not outgoing but she is not shy either. She is in the middle. She is really outgoing in 4-h but not really in school. She has about four really good girlfriends and isn’t the type that says hi to everyone.
But on the other hand she is the type of person that stands up for what she believes in and is willing to make changes in the world if she sees fit. When she gets her mind set on something there is no stopping that train.
I thought to myself it takes a lot of balls to do this. I don’t think I could do it.
So I signed the paper and we went on our way.
So all through the weekend I kept on asking her did you type your speech ? and she kept telling me no mom. So finally sunday dinner and we are done. I asked her again and she said “Mom I am not so sure about this. ?”
And I sat there quietly which never happens. I think as I get older I am shutting up more. Thinking in my head here comes some motivation speech Nicole Prather make a good and walk this girl off the ledge.
So I did. I told her Nat you can give up now. You committed to this. You felt this in your heart. And no matter what happens you tried. And that is awesome. And some other stuff.
She said you a right mom. And I asked her do you want me to help you write your speech. She said yes. So we did.
And then on Monday I helped her make some posters up.
So on Friday she had to say her speech in front of everyone scared. But she did it. So today we find out. And no matter what I am proud of her.
She is just one of the those kinds of people that are not afraid. I admire that about her.
She is one of my heros. She will just never know how much I love her.
Until next time.
Its Sunday. Which is laundry of course.
A bath in the morning.
Talking about where he got his wedding ring from ? Morgan always likes to ask him.
Him in his wheelhouse. Food is love.
Both peoples in this pictures don’t want to be here taking this picture.
Best tacos ever.
Probably one of my favorite moments from this week. Giving my daughter a pep talk about being courageous. Helping her write her student body speech.
Playing a little competitive Badminton.
Thinking of ordering this print for Morgans room.
She loves doing this ever since Wyatt did it. Moving her hand from sad face to happy face.
And ending the day with a second bath. And a happy face. I like. that.
So much of it.
I think reflection especially happened when I did the gratitude sheets.
Everyday moments that I look over because life gets so busy.
I heard a lot more because I was consciously listening.
So much more.
* Thinking of the way I am going to put my book together.
* And a big thank you to Ali Edwards. She is an inspiration to me and so many others in this world.
*Its been wonderful.
The morning started off this a little Madden.
And some painting.
Getting the lawn mowed and spraying for bugs. Check.
Reading the bible. Essential for me.
A little tennis for this family.
A little show off for the camera.
Bring it on.
Natalie is on the last book of the series which is 5 books total. She has been dying to see this movie so her dad took her.
Beach hut for this lady.
Watched Parental Guidance. I always cry at this movie.
Her dad took her to the goodwill and got some books. This one is for Wyatt. And Big Mo pulled out the camera for some selfies. Hope to put them into this project.
Ended the night with watching Great Gatsby. ( not sure how I feel about the movie ?) in actuality I am not really a movie person. But this old maid is changing things up. Trying to renovate myself.
We are on the home stretch. Nothing much goes on here but cleaning and getting ready for school on Sunday.
I have enjoyed. And I have reflected. I am thankful.